Monday, October 16, 2006: overwhelmed
@ the pokpokkeh expert's house right now, and we're going to cook pokpokkeh rice for dinner before gg back to the BH.
i feel like i've missed so much here! oh well, now that i've got 5 more years here i can slowly take my time to get to know more people. (:
maybe the reason why i like perth so much is because its a different crowd here, and i can start my life over again, on the right foot this time. and i hope i have, because there are too many knots in my life back home to untangle, and perhaps its better left this way, untouched, buried, because if dug out, it might get a whole lot worse than it is already.
the other day i saw this group of primary school girls on the bus, and 2 of them were sitting in front of me and i overheard their conversation. as i get to understand them more just from the way they behave and what they talked about, i realise that girl A was so restless that she never really took in a word that girl B was saying. i was disgusted with girl A and i felt that girl B was really being too nice to girl A already. whats more, girl A kept diverting the focus of their conversation to herself. you know, after that episode, i realised that i was pretty much like girl A, just a taller, older version. there are many people out there whom i've talked to, that i've never really paid attention to, cos i was always distracted or didnt feel like it, and that i'm always interested in myself and my interests only. i hardly try to make more meaningful connections with others.
maybe i've disappointed too many people. heh, come to think about it, its become such a vicious routine. my pride has made me too self centred, selfish and self-satisfying, that i've become numb toward my disgust of this matter.
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And to all of the people with burdens and pains Keeping you back from your life You believe that there's nothing and there is no one Who can make it right There is hope for the helpless Rest for the weary Love for the broken heartThere is grace and forgiveness Mercy and healing He'll meet you wherever you are Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains You try to give up but you come back again Just remember that you're not alone in your shame And your suffering When your lonely And it feels like the whole world is falling on you You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus Cry to Jesus cry out to Jesus - third day
a shout of praise.
4:47 PM
